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    November 22

    随笔:为了爱 梦一生(2007-11-22)

     

     

    为了爱 梦一生
    这是疯狂 还是缘分
    爱你有多深

    就是苍天捉弄我几分

     

    凌晨3点,依然无法入睡,聆听着熟悉的声音,一字一句的说笑,声声触动了那颗想念你的心。忘记了有多少日子,我们没有这样的说话;忘记了有多少日子,我们没有这样的玩笑。在这样的世界里,人与人的擦肩有多平常,似乎已无人再去深究。但是一幕幕的故事,却始终没有停下上演的节奏。纷扰之中的心意,其实,我不说,你也是懂的,对吗?

     

    谈论着我们曾经一同走过的那些岁月,那抹青春在彼此的生命中,渐行渐远。你说人总是要朝前走的,即使偶尔会回下头,望望那离自己远去的时光,但是最终还是不能够停留,就像是那远行的小舟,也许可以暂时停泊在某一个码头,却依旧无法割舍属于它的流浪,最终还是会升起桅杆上的帆,飘向远方。

     

    不能想 不敢问
    是我太傻 还是太真
    狂乱的夜晚

    又能留住多少个春天

     

    也许我们的遇见与相识已是个错误?有的时候,自己悄悄的想,如果没有遇见你,该多好!如果我们真的没有遇见,也许就不会有这般让人心酸心痛的感受;如果我们真的没有遇见,也许就不会有这样让人纠缠不舍的情感。可是,命运却安排我们认识了彼此,又让我爱上了你,虽然你总是对我说:“小雨,千万别爱上我,我是个浪子。”然而,阴差阳错般的,我却是爱上了。

     

    我们之间没有过什么承诺,唯一约定过便是我们都要努力快乐的生活。相识相伴的记忆里,我似乎总是静静的看着你为别人伤,为别人痛,而自己却无能为力。我心中的那份无奈,那份着急,还有那份隐隐的担忧,你是否都曾了解?不知道怎样才能让你忘记从前的伤,不知道怎样才能让你忘记曾经所有的不快乐,所以我只能静静的陪伴,默默的跟随。希望有一天,你会在猛然间发觉,你的身边,还有我。哪怕只有我……

     

    为了爱 梦一生
    悠悠荡荡 几番浮沉
    梦里的余温

    够我抵挡那世间寒冷

     

    一年又一年的轮回,你我走近,又走远,相似的轨迹,不同的心情,在每个花开花落的季节里,在每个潮来潮去的朝夕中,总保留着那份简单而纯美的回忆。也许,这所有的一切在你的眼中,不过只如云烟一般飘渺,还没有机会靠近,就已经在微风的吹拂下,轻轻的远离。难道这就是你我之间的爱情吗?难道这就是我们痴心追逐的缠绵吗?心中一个又一个疑问,在这样寒冷的午夜悄然爬上心头,在如今那荒野一般的心境中,滋生着混沌的未来。

     

    很想,在爱的时候,不顾一切;很想,在爱你的时候,坚持到底;很想,在相爱的时候,用心珍惜!夜色深沉,相思如醉。淡淡的想着你,写下这淡淡的文字,可是笔尖上沾满的对你的思念,却始终逃离不开旧日的缩影。夜色中,月光独明,是否,你的心,也会为我而跳动?花瓣飘零,青春远走,是否,你的手,也会牵起我的一起走?千年相约,花淡淡;尘世浮华,泪冉冉。唯有轻声一句:为君而来,为君而留。

     

    为了爱 宁愿不醒来
    再多苦 我不在乎
    为了爱 这场梦吹不散
    今夜 用一生等待

    November 15

    Go away, Jerks!

     
    It's getting cold outside, but no matter how much cold outside, it cannot be any colder than inside--in my heart. I don't know how to begin today's writing, especially after I came across something that I shouldn't know or I should have known much earlier, that's why I just sit here and keep silent before I start to write.
     
    After reading several articles, I decide that I should write something, anything, aim to express what I feel or just to warn other innocent people to avoid later. I know that the world today is not perfect and never been or to be perfect ever, but what I didn't know is that it can be so ugly, to some extent.
     
    It may always be in that situation, right? Nice people would be hurt by those who are not. I'm not trying to say that I am the nice one, but at least I don't separate my heart into many pieces and give each piece to several people at the same time. However, some people are fond of doing things like this! They may think others are not as smart as they are, or kinda stupid in emotions, that's why they can keep the relationships with different people at the same time! What a disgussting mind in their heart!
     
    Emotion is a pure feeling of one's world, maybe it's the purest aspect, but someone always wants to destroy this beautiful thing. They tell terrible lies while they pretend themselves to be the weak, they separate love to various people while they pretend themselves to be the faith, they hurt people's feelings while they pretend themselves to be the victims... In fact, they are nothing, but Jerks!
     
    'Honey, I miss you so much','Sweetheart, I love you'... These words should be the most beautiful sentences between lovers, sadly some Jerks use these when they lie. They are mostly the experts of emotion because of their ex-experiences in life. That's why they know what people want and how to give a tough express in the heart. They wears a mask of  being sensitive and quite understanding, meanwhile to do the most ugly thing. Because of this mask, they can escape the punishment from the nice human. So they aware of nothing, no fear, no belief, only ill mind left! Actually, they are the tiniest thing in this world, pitiest thing as well, because their world are fulfilled of darkness, and they will be tracked in that deepest dark world forever...
     
    The more people they lie to and hurt, the darker world they'll get at the end! Life will be fair at last... No matter what these Jerks do, they would fail! They will achieve nothing! That is the faith to them... no matter where they are or will be, no matter what they do or will do, no matter who they pretend and how they pretend... They will get the punishment-- the cruelest and heaviest punishment for what they did!!!
     
    Not much time left for you any more, Jerks! So just go away from the nice human beings and pray for yourselves for the last chance... Timing for the God punishment... You will get the badly punishment for being a liar and a jerk... You will!...
    November 08

    随笔:站在冬天的门槛(20071108)

     
    我站在冬天的门槛,等你……
     
    立冬了。窗外阴阴的。飘着的不是雪花,而是混沌的小雨。不成丝,不成缕,却只是那样飘着。天色被这样的雨染得昏暗,仿佛也充满了一种幽怨与迷惘。
     
    还记得关于秋天的言辞:“站在深秋,何必再问,落叶的归处”。时光如水一样的流淌着,左右不定的时候,便已经步入了冬天。
     
    “我站在冬天的门槛”,在自己写下这句话之后,脑子里涌出了很多种接下来的说法。
     
    比如:
    “我站在冬天的门槛,迎着你归来的方向,张望”,
    “我站在冬天的门槛,把自己守望着一尊蹩脚的雕像”;
     
    又如:
    “我站在冬天的门槛,听那雪落的声音”,
    “我站在冬天的门槛,放下匆忙的行囊”。
     
    可是,总觉得这样的话不好。于是,呆呆的坐在电脑屏幕前。
     
    想来人是不应该发呆的。为什么呢?发呆的时候,思想是静止的,但是情感却依旧是流动的,结果就成了感性大于理性的断层。
     
    立冬之后,就有了等待下雪的心事,因为下了雪就是年末的感觉了,也就意味着这一年又要过去了。真快!
     
    这一年就要这样的过去了!这样想着,自己不禁用手翻看着台历,一页,两页,这一年就到头了。
     
    不知为何,想起了一段雪花纷飞的故事,也许是冬天的我们都会感到寒冷的原因吧。孤单的,多是会透露出一种让人心酸的寒意来。
     
    房间很温暖,然而心思却寻来一片冰雪般的凉意,是心中的哪个角落破损了,才这样被侵袭的吗?暗自思量着……
     
    如果一切如从前,如果一切未改变,如果,如果……所有的可能都能顺利的实现,你——会来吗?问完,自己傻傻的笑起来。问题是问出来了,可是,这样的问题,问的是谁呢?
     
    看到了小天使的图片,很是喜欢,喜欢她那一脸无邪又认真的表情,喜欢她那充盈着期待又迷茫的眼神,喜欢她那让人感到亲近又遥远的姿态,喜欢她如我一样的守望心情。
     
    脑海中忽地出现了一句让自己感到完整的话:“我站在冬天的门槛,等你……”
     
    等你。因为等待是人生最初的苍老。因为等待是世间最鬼魅的谎言。因为除了等待,我没有其他方式。
     
    秋去冬来年岁改,
    朝花夕拾人无奈,
    孤月悬空暗独酌,
    繁星相拥恋世间。