I dreamed of going back home again last night. This is not the first time that I dreamed back during these couple of days. The day before yesterday, I dreamed back where my parents and younger sister went to the airport to pick me up, just like the time when I back from UK. And last night, I dreamed back where my elder brother came to visit at my cozy room, just like the time when he came to see me around New Year. Time flies! Along with all the memories, too!

After several days of raining here, it finally got a sunny day today. I like Toronto's autumn. The leaves turn to become more and more colourful in this season. I like seeing those yellow and red leaves flying around with the gentle wind, and finally landed on the ground to make the view even more beautiful that I cannot stop being attracted by the lovely place.

I have been sick since last Thursday night, got cough, headache, and felt really cold and tired. It was nice to received E's message on Friday morning that he planed to come to my place to pick up my book and helped me to return to the library. I insisted to go to school together since I don't like the feeling being alone at the place I live. I couldn't help crying when I was on the bus. I guess E saw my tears at that time, so he gave me a tight hug. Actually his hug made me feel warm again. It was a surprise to see him carry my favorite burger when he took me to lunch room to have lunch with him on Friday afternoon. I was touched that he went to that restaurant in the heavy rain during the time I was in the library! Thanks for his thoughtfulness; I feel being loved every time.

It's getting cold each day, but with the feeling of beloved, the outside temperature doesn't seems so important because the heart is warmed by one of the most precious feeling in this world. I like the time together, no matter where we are, we can always feel the passion, the kindness and the caring. I like this weekend a lot even though I'm not well, however, the feeling in my heart is extremely warm because I sense the wonderful feeling named 'love'. I like the flower each time E gave to me; even though I cannot keep them fresh forever, I do make couple of petals last forever and save them in my books, as well as take pictures and save them in my memories, just like these words written to make myself remember that I have so many wonderful feelings in life!

Walking with E in a small and lovely park in this afternoon, hand in hand, I felt peace and secure. After seeing him holding his puppy yesterday, I want to have a pet myself, too. Sigh... my parents haven't allowed me to have a pet till now. This Sunday afternoon, I was so happy to see him with Peppy at my door. Walking together gave me a really sweet feeling. A feeling mentioned by a friend years ago, but at that time I didn't realize that kind of feeling could be so amazing that I might not willing to walk away.

For a moment, everything seems perfect to me! The clear sky, the peaceful path, the colouful trees, the flying leaves, the beautiful ground, the adorable pet, and the caring friend. Suddenly, I fell in love with this wonderful life again, although here is not my home - yet, I do hope to begin a family with some kind person who I love while loves me, to make here become a place that I could call it home.

Love is truly a magic! No matter who we are, or where we are, as long as we fall in love with someone, the world would become more delighted and bright than the past. It's always nice and important to hear people saying those three magic words. Till recently that I realize it's also wonderful to say those words. Love may never be the significant part of one's life unless he/she falls in love completely. Therefore, I close my eyes, cross my fingers and make a wish about future......

--- Everywhere is home if home is nowhere ---

飞翔。向着遥远的地方，一路留恋，一路回望。

忙碌的日子一天天的从身边溜走，走过晴天，走过雨天，从白雪纷飞的冬日步入春花无痕的秋，一年的光景就这样悄然的流逝了。不过，其中的经历与感受却是过去三年在国内无法体验的财富。很充实的感觉每时每刻会萦绕在心头，在经历了夏日的美好以后，心中更是增添了一份希望与憧憬。也许仅仅是一份小小的希望，却涵盖了丰富的将来。

分分合合，打打闹闹，才是生活吧？仿佛很多人都这样说，都是这样的感受。朋友说“只要你自己感觉到幸福，感觉到美好，就足够了！”或许吧，感受向来只是个人的事情。

幸福是什么呢？

是心中流淌的甜美与温暖的感受——

是每次手捧着他送来的那些鲜艳的玫瑰；

是接过他冒雨从学校送到家门口的那件雨衣；

是两个人在大雨中漫步时共撑的那把伞；

是吃到他早起做好且送到嘴边的早餐；

是听到他重复自己之前不经意说过的话语；

是他偷偷买好我喜欢的吃的并开心的哄着我吃；

是肩并肩坐在同一间教室里学习；

是偶尔的四目相视、恋恋不舍的凝望；

是冰冷的小手被他温暖的大手握着；

是寒风中被他紧紧的拥进怀中；

是他轻柔的吻落在前额、落在发梢；

是午夜过后依然在自己身边默默的陪伴；

是知道生活中自己不再独自一人去面对所有的事。

坐在电脑前，脑海中不由得回想着过去几个月里的点点滴滴，虽然也有过误解，有过不开心，然而与美好的感受相比起来，还是应该让自己多关注美好，不管怎样的心情，生活都是一样的继续向前进行，与其满腹抱怨或不满，不如用微笑来承载所有行囊，依然相信：一切都会越来越好！

飞翔。向着梦想的地方，一路成长，一路希望。

不知道应该如何述说此时此刻的感受，百般滋味在心头，却难以用文字来表述。日子一天一天在过，身边的人也逐渐开始增加，美好的经历、感伤的体验，伴随着生活的足迹，点点滴滴，循环上演。黑白交错的空间里，总有一处感动可以融化心底冰冷的角落；彷徨不定的时空中，总有一处温暖可以驱散心底孤独的身影。

 

也许是应了那句“有多少快乐，就会有多少悲伤”吧，来来往往的岁月中，增添的快乐感受似乎总有与之相对应的感伤，或是对他人，或是对自己，无从辨别，也无法界定。一切总是循环在某种特定的轨道里，一圈又一圈，于是绕过了一年又一年。看过了花开，也看过了花谢；看过了日出，也看过了日落。就这样时间不停的行走着，人也跟着不停的行走着，或有目标，或无方向。

 

翻看了一下来到加拿大之后写下的文字，远远没有在英国时候写的那样丰富，数量上也少了一些，总是觉得如今的生活没有英国时候那样丰富多彩，其实想想也不尽然，在这里也有很多不同的美好的经历！除了平时忙碌的学习生活以外，也交往了新的朋友，体验了跟当地家庭一起过感恩节的生活，也体验了跟朋友出门享受感恩特色的美味，其实一切都是很美好的！好像从前朋友说过的：一切都会更好的！

 

身边越来越多的朋友走进围城，又走出围城，演绎着一段又一段相似又不尽相同的悲喜故事，而自己总是徘徊着、犹豫着。或许当所有的感受都可以从容面对的时候，才是真的有所准备吧，而如今的时间里，只是在不断的磨砺自己，可以让自己今后在心灵上有所突破与超越。

 

今天下午迎来了最近几天少有的阳光，虽然风已是充满了凉意，但是有阳光洒在身上还是很暖很暖的感觉，走在校园里，看着夏日里曾经茂盛葱绿的树木如今已经变成了金黄，也已经有很多叶片飞离了树梢，还是忍不住伤春悲秋的了一下。“一叶飞落可知秋”，自己曾经写下的文字，在这样的景色面前忽然出现在脑海里。仿佛还没有来得及细细体会夏日的滋味，转眼间就已经开始书写秋天的续篇了。其实，天气一点点的转凉，仿佛早已是冬日的感怀。

 

回家的路上站在金黄的树下，看着满地凋落的树叶，很想定格在这样的画面；蓝蓝的天上几缕白云飘过，秋风微微，拂过发梢，送来一丝微寒，也吹过了更多的金黄叶片，飞落到地面，好似给大地铺上了金色的地毯。一切都是那么安详！

 

成长，在每一个阶段悄然进行。走过春秋，走过风雨，走过遥远，走过梦幻，之后走进现实，走进天涯的一方，走进海角的另一端。反复无常的变换，朝夕不离的陪伴，滋生了感情的温度，升华了精神的家园。是理解？是期盼？还是久久不散的浪漫？不同的滋味，组成了人生故事的每个片段，没有好与坏，没有对与错，有的只是谁珍惜了谁，谁离开了谁……