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I dreamed of going back home again last night. This is not the first time that I dreamed back during these couple of days. The day before yesterday, I dreamed back where my parents and younger sister went to the airport to pick me up, just like the time when I back from UK. And last night, I dreamed back where my elder brother came to visit at my cozy room, just like the time when he came to see me around New Year. Time flies! Along with all the memories, too!

After several days of raining here, it finally got a sunny day today. I like Toronto's autumn. The leaves turn to become more and more colourful in this season. I like seeing those yellow and red leaves flying around with the gentle wind, and finally landed on the ground to make the view even more beautiful that I cannot stop being attracted by the lovely place.

I have been sick since last Thursday night, got cough, headache, and felt really cold and tired. It was nice to received E's message on Friday morning that he planed to come to my place to pick up my book and helped me to return to the library. I insisted to go to school together since I don't like the feeling being alone at the place I live. I couldn't help crying when I was on the bus. I guess E saw my tears at that time, so he gave me a tight hug. Actually his hug made me feel warm again. It was a surprise to see him carry my favorite burger when he took me to lunch room to have lunch with him on Friday afternoon. I was touched that he went to that restaurant in the heavy rain during the time I was in the library! Thanks for his thoughtfulness; I feel being loved every time.

It's getting cold each day, but with the feeling of beloved, the outside temperature doesn't seems so important because the heart is warmed by one of the most precious feeling in this world. I like the time together, no matter where we are, we can always feel the passion, the kindness and the caring. I like this weekend a lot even though I'm not well, however, the feeling in my heart is extremely warm because I sense the wonderful feeling named 'love'. I like the flower each time E gave to me; even though I cannot keep them fresh forever, I do make couple of petals last forever and save them in my books, as well as take pictures and save them in my memories, just like these words written to make myself remember that I have so many wonderful feelings in life!

Walking with E in a small and lovely park in this afternoon, hand in hand, I felt peace and secure. After seeing him holding his puppy yesterday, I want to have a pet myself, too. Sigh... my parents haven't allowed me to have a pet till now. This Sunday afternoon, I was so happy to see him with Peppy at my door. Walking together gave me a really sweet feeling. A feeling mentioned by a friend years ago, but at that time I didn't realize that kind of feeling could be so amazing that I might not willing to walk away.

For a moment, everything seems perfect to me! The clear sky, the peaceful path, the colouful trees, the flying leaves, the beautiful ground, the adorable pet, and the caring friend. Suddenly, I fell in love with this wonderful life again, although here is not my home - yet, I do hope to begin a family with some kind person who I love while loves me, to make here become a place that I could call it home.

Love is truly a magic! No matter who we are, or where we are, as long as we fall in love with someone, the world would become more delighted and bright than the past. It's always nice and important to hear people saying those three magic words. Till recently that I realize it's also wonderful to say those words. Love may never be the significant part of one's life unless he/she falls in love completely. Therefore, I close my eyes, cross my fingers and make a wish about future......

--- Everywhere is home if home is nowhere ---

飞翔。向着遥远的地方，一路留恋，一路回望。

忙碌的日子一天天的从身边溜走，走过晴天，走过雨天，从白雪纷飞的冬日步入春花无痕的秋，一年的光景就这样悄然的流逝了。不过，其中的经历与感受却是过去三年在国内无法体验的财富。很充实的感觉每时每刻会萦绕在心头，在经历了夏日的美好以后，心中更是增添了一份希望与憧憬。也许仅仅是一份小小的希望，却涵盖了丰富的将来。

分分合合，打打闹闹，才是生活吧？仿佛很多人都这样说，都是这样的感受。朋友说“只要你自己感觉到幸福，感觉到美好，就足够了！”或许吧，感受向来只是个人的事情。

幸福是什么呢？

是心中流淌的甜美与温暖的感受——

是每次手捧着他送来的那些鲜艳的玫瑰；

是接过他冒雨从学校送到家门口的那件雨衣；

是两个人在大雨中漫步时共撑的那把伞；

是吃到他早起做好且送到嘴边的早餐；

是听到他重复自己之前不经意说过的话语；

是他偷偷买好我喜欢的吃的并开心的哄着我吃；

是肩并肩坐在同一间教室里学习；

是偶尔的四目相视、恋恋不舍的凝望；

是冰冷的小手被他温暖的大手握着；

是寒风中被他紧紧的拥进怀中；

是他轻柔的吻落在前额、落在发梢；

是午夜过后依然在自己身边默默的陪伴；

是知道生活中自己不再独自一人去面对所有的事。

坐在电脑前，脑海中不由得回想着过去几个月里的点点滴滴，虽然也有过误解，有过不开心，然而与美好的感受相比起来，还是应该让自己多关注美好，不管怎样的心情，生活都是一样的继续向前进行，与其满腹抱怨或不满，不如用微笑来承载所有行囊，依然相信：一切都会越来越好！

飞翔。向着梦想的地方，一路成长，一路希望。

不知道应该如何述说此时此刻的感受，百般滋味在心头，却难以用文字来表述。日子一天一天在过，身边的人也逐渐开始增加，美好的经历、感伤的体验，伴随着生活的足迹，点点滴滴，循环上演。黑白交错的空间里，总有一处感动可以融化心底冰冷的角落；彷徨不定的时空中，总有一处温暖可以驱散心底孤独的身影。

 

也许是应了那句“有多少快乐，就会有多少悲伤”吧，来来往往的岁月中，增添的快乐感受似乎总有与之相对应的感伤，或是对他人，或是对自己，无从辨别，也无法界定。一切总是循环在某种特定的轨道里，一圈又一圈，于是绕过了一年又一年。看过了花开，也看过了花谢；看过了日出，也看过了日落。就这样时间不停的行走着，人也跟着不停的行走着，或有目标，或无方向。

 

翻看了一下来到加拿大之后写下的文字，远远没有在英国时候写的那样丰富，数量上也少了一些，总是觉得如今的生活没有英国时候那样丰富多彩，其实想想也不尽然，在这里也有很多不同的美好的经历！除了平时忙碌的学习生活以外，也交往了新的朋友，体验了跟当地家庭一起过感恩节的生活，也体验了跟朋友出门享受感恩特色的美味，其实一切都是很美好的！好像从前朋友说过的：一切都会更好的！

 

身边越来越多的朋友走进围城，又走出围城，演绎着一段又一段相似又不尽相同的悲喜故事，而自己总是徘徊着、犹豫着。或许当所有的感受都可以从容面对的时候，才是真的有所准备吧，而如今的时间里，只是在不断的磨砺自己，可以让自己今后在心灵上有所突破与超越。

 

今天下午迎来了最近几天少有的阳光，虽然风已是充满了凉意，但是有阳光洒在身上还是很暖很暖的感觉，走在校园里，看着夏日里曾经茂盛葱绿的树木如今已经变成了金黄，也已经有很多叶片飞离了树梢，还是忍不住伤春悲秋的了一下。“一叶飞落可知秋”，自己曾经写下的文字，在这样的景色面前忽然出现在脑海里。仿佛还没有来得及细细体会夏日的滋味，转眼间就已经开始书写秋天的续篇了。其实，天气一点点的转凉，仿佛早已是冬日的感怀。

 

回家的路上站在金黄的树下，看着满地凋落的树叶，很想定格在这样的画面；蓝蓝的天上几缕白云飘过，秋风微微，拂过发梢，送来一丝微寒，也吹过了更多的金黄叶片，飞落到地面，好似给大地铺上了金色的地毯。一切都是那么安详！

 

成长，在每一个阶段悄然进行。走过春秋，走过风雨，走过遥远，走过梦幻，之后走进现实，走进天涯的一方，走进海角的另一端。反复无常的变换，朝夕不离的陪伴，滋生了感情的温度，升华了精神的家园。是理解？是期盼？还是久久不散的浪漫？不同的滋味，组成了人生故事的每个片段，没有好与坏，没有对与错，有的只是谁珍惜了谁，谁离开了谁……

淡淡红尘之中，寻寻觅觅之间，

分分合合，几经辗转，

究竟是错过了一生挚爱，

还是成全了三世情缘？

阳光明媚的午后，有些慵懒的坐在电脑前，望着窗外碧蓝天空中漂浮的团团白云，脑子有点真空的状态，空荡荡却又沉甸甸的。忽然一阵秋风吹进房间，带来了一丝微微的凉意，也将对面树上的叶子吹下了几片，不仅在心中默默的感叹，真是一叶飞落可知秋啊！

夏季的炎热似乎仍在继续，然而青春的岁月却轻轻的走向了遥远，面对时间与空间交错而生的混沌，很多人都会迷茫的吧？忽然脑海中出现了那句古语：“路漫漫其修远兮，吾将上下而求索”。漫长而又短暂的人生，几十年可以是遥遥无期的感觉，也可以如转瞬即逝的流星一般让人眷念。

从魁北克城回到多伦多已经有十几天了，但是心中却依然留恋着在那里短暂的时光，那种与欧洲似曾相识的亲切感觉，仿佛能够沿着狭窄的小径从如今的Quebec City走到从前的Leeds。但是不情愿的将自己从美好的记忆之中带回到现实的世界，也许真的如很多朋友说的那样吧，人生活在这个世界里，是现实的。只是，自己心中还是愿意保留着那份清澈与不染……

昨天用小相机拍下了窗前花瓶里的那枝康乃馨，居然惊讶的照出了一张蛮有艺术感觉的照片，自我欣赏了一下这张作品，换成了自己电脑上的桌面背景图片，也发给了家里，发给了朋友，开心的与人分享，想把自己的快乐传递给自己生命中不可或缺的人，哪怕只是一点小小的快乐与美好！

第一个秋季的周末，难得的惬意心情，一度辗转反侧的迷乱，如今却似这样晴朗的天气一般在逐渐的远离。虽然依然是犹豫，虽然依旧是彷徨，但似乎总会期待着那阴霾退却的时刻。生活是自己的，感受也是自己的，美好也罢，阴郁也罢，快乐也罢，伤感也罢，自己的人生也只有自己才能够负责。

其实，没有必要苛求别人如自己一样的选择，也没有必要点评他人的选择，坚持走自己的路，只要自己觉得快乐和充实，又何须在意别人的评头论足呢？这个世界上本来就存在着那些愿意评价他人的人，虽然这些人自己的生活没过出什么优于他人之处，却总喜欢标榜和炫耀他们的生活，无非是将他们内心的嫉妒隐藏在伪善的面具之下罢了。

近来一直在思考着，究竟什么是幸福，最后总结了一下，发现幸福归根结底是一种感受，是一种只有经历其中的人才能了解的感受，是一种旁人无法体会和评论的感受，是一种犹如“众里寻她千百度，蓦然回首，那人却在灯火阑珊处”的感受。

Life is a dream for the wise,

A game for the fool,

A comedy for the rich,

A tragedy for the poor.

--Shalom Aleichem

如果，今生的我们没有相遇，

是否会依然快乐？

如果，今生的我们没有分离，

是否会依旧眷恋？

淡淡风尘之外，呼唤着你的姓名；

茫茫人海之中，搜索着你的身影。

思绪旋转，忽暗忽明，

好似炎热的夏天一般多变。

走过春秋之后的契合，

留下旷世稀有的依托，

没有承诺，胜似承诺；

没有誓言，胜过誓言。

只因在这繁华世间，

与你相逢，

相知又相恋，

于是，一切的情感有你相伴；

于是，所有的美妙与你有关。

让玫瑰代表你我，

将这份属于彼此的美丽延续，

直到很远、很远以后的瞬间。

期待，在未来的某一天，

我的手可以被你轻轻的牵起，

刻画出那一份真挚的同心圆，

直到很久、很久之后的永远。

轻柔的月光下，

你我相依、相拥，

起舞，随着岁月的韵律，

挪动着温暖跌宕的舞步，

跳一曲永不分离。

哪怕再多的纷扰也毫不在意，

哪怕再多的喧闹也毫不顾虑，

因为知道，从此自己不再独自飞翔，

在我的天空，有你；

我的世界里，至少还有你……

Time flies! It seems as if the beginning of this semester, however, it's going to the end now. Many things happened during this period of time, mostly of which are wonderful things, such as new friends, new teachers, new knowledge, new mood, and of course a new story...

Generally speaking, I've been bloody busy recently because of so many assignments, group work, case studies, as well as the preparation of the final exams. Kinda feel stressful days ago, so haven't got the mood of eating from then. Although I love planning things in life in order to keep them well-organized, sometimes it simply doesn't work as I thought.

Everything can change! After I said that, E told me that sometimes change can be good thing, too. He ran to my bus stop to make a change of waiting for bus instead of his normal bus stop, which gave me a real surprise, when I walked out of the yard and saw his waving towards me in the morning; also, he led my way to a different path which was also nice road when we walked to the building in school the same morning. Sometimes, we may feel lost in life because of so many things coming towards us nearly at the same time; however, if we could stay in calm and make sure to figure out which is more important & necessary in life, and then make the move to solve it, I believe the goals could be achieved sooner or later.

Last night when I talked with my sister who's getting married next week, I missed her so much that I wish to fly back home immediately to join her wedding ceremony. She told me that she received my celebrating card yesterday and planned to let the host read my poem written for her on her wedding. I love this lovely idea, which makes me feel to be close to her on the important day; she wishes that I could back home to be with her during this important period, to share her joyness, and to experience her wonderful feelings. I wish I could do that, too.

However, those can only be a wish. Right now, I have no time & no money to afford that long distance journey, sigh... still have to work on it and hopefully I can make it before the next Spring Festival! I once hoped that I don't need to back home alone, but maybe it's not the right time yet, so I still need to wait for some other time, well, actually only God know how long it could take... Still, ought to be strong & brave, and have faith in life no matter what.

Most of the time, people can be strugling when they make some decisions; in the past, I didn't realize that I could become one of these people some day, nevertheless, I realize recently that making decision can be one of the most difficult thing to do in the world. No matter how much we care, no matter what we really hope to accomplish, we still can miss the opportunities. Friends told me that I should wait, wait until the right time, the right place, then I could be with the right person for now and forever. I don't know... More and more friends around me either gonna get married or gonna have babies, and I'm really happy for them to share their experiences with me. Life is about sharing, no matter with families or with friends; sometimes we can even share our experiences and stories to some strangers in life. No matter whom we share our experiencs, we could be happy ourselves and we could bring happiness to someone else, hopefully.

The type of happiness can vary from people to people because we all have different standards as well as expectations of joyness. "Am I happy?" I asked myself, quite a lot of times recently... and the answer is "yes". Even though I choose a slightly different lifestyle as other friends to live, I still enjoy my life because it is my choice. Right... it is my choice to leave the comfortable home where my family are, it is my choice to give up the privous job which I like to do, it is my choice to wait my Mr. Right for so much time instead of following other people's steps, it is my choice to travel across the half world to live alone... yep...these are all my choices...

Life can be really confusing if we don't concentrate on where we are surpposed to go because there are so many distractions in life. Just as the movie in which the bride likes to run from her weddings for several times because she couldn't bear the pressure and felt lost. I think it is the same as feeling lost in life; sometimes, when we can't stare at the goal, we may walk into some other directions which might lead us to the same goal or might lead us to some object direction.

I changed the wall paper of my laptop from green leaves to wedding rings last night, guess it's a result of being effected by my sister's coming wedding ceremony... I know it is difficult for most of people to make a lifetime commitment, as we always like to say that we are not ready or it's not the right time yet. That's the reason why I should give all my best wishes to those people who are gonna or already made the commitment for their life. It's nice feeling that some day when we all grow old, we could sit by each other to enjoy the precious memories and told the other that how much we love, how much we care, how lucky we were to find each other and how sweet to be with each other for the whole lifetime.

Anyway, the thoughts can go really far away from the reality. We smile, we cry; we laugh, we yell. All these because of love, not only the love of ourselves, but also the love of each other.  

日子在快乐的情绪之中平静的流淌，不知不觉的时候已经在加拿大住了半年，曾经的种种历历在目，并没有随着时间的流逝而淡忘，或许偶尔会觉得那些过往甚至有一种弥留在生活中的趋势，不紧不慢的，跟随着自己留在生活的轨迹，一步一步的走着。

朋友说很喜欢我在镜头前的微笑，于是在半年的这个日子，把镜头打开，为自己留下这一串记忆的画面，也许不是最灿烂的笑容，但依然是最真实的。真实的生活，真实的做自己，真实的憧憬，真实的向往……

第一次听到这首<We Are One>，就被美妙的旋律和深情的演唱迷住了，于是想都没想就把自己空间的背景音乐换成了这首歌。想象着哪天自己也可以唱得了这歌该多好！不过，也仅仅是想了一下罢了，高难度的歌曲也许只是更适合欣赏。

穿梭在校园里的时候，能被另一双大手牵着走，这样的感觉很像如今晴朗夏天里的一缕清风，很像有阳光时候的那份温暖，也很像窗外那宝石蓝的夜色一般宁静。人生享受的总是过程吧？不用过多的思考，没有过重的负担，一切都在轻松而自然的环境下悄悄进展。

最近又在重新看<Friends>，每次看都会有不同的感受，已经记不住看过多少遍了，经典的就是经典，百看不厌的感觉！无论什么时候看，都会想起在英国跟朋友一起边吃饭边观看的情景，还有看过之后的种种开心的讨论。回忆好像一匹脱了缰绳的野马一样，飞奔出千里，跨越时间与空间，到达英伦彼岸……

或许，每个人的心中总会有一个结，可能是某个人，可能是某个日期，可能是某个地点，无论之后的生活如何改变，都不会影响这个结的纠缠，此消彼长，无怨无悔，似水流年！

突然有点不知道该写点什么了，随意写首英文短诗分享一下。

<The Day We Meet>

A journey, a bus, a stop,

We met on the beautiful lovely day,

The sun shinning through the window,

Suddenly, I bumped into you.

I said sorry while you turned around,

And looked at me.

The shinning in your eyes，

The smiling on your face,

Is as beautiful as the Lake Ontario.

No one is sure about the future,

No one is sure about the life,

At this season, of this year,

I’m still glad to meet you in my life.

Climb all the mountains, cross all the sea,

What could be luckier than you and I meet.

You’re my honey, and I’m your sugar,

Sweet, sweet memories,

And may those last forever!

After nearly a week of rainy weather, it finally become a sunny day on this Saturday. I dreamed of living in that cozy house last night; it's kind of strange feeling that I feel that place as if my own house, or maybe it's just a dream in which I could feel the wonderful things...

A little bit lonely during this weekend. Love is really magic feeling, isn't it? No matter how long two people meet or know each other, no matter where they meet and know each other, no matter when they meet and know each other, when the feeling of love comes, it comes without any condition of surroundings. Wonderful weird - as the description of Phiby from Mike.

I had a bus adventure today, as friend said, I took the bus to go to that wonderful place in my memory. Last time when I was there, it was night time, it was getting dark, and few people walked by the place, which made it so peaceful. Sitting next to the person I trust, listened, talked, and enjoyed the lovely evening. Stars in the sky, wind blew my hair fly, dancing without music... all those sweet feelings came up at that unforgetable evening. That's the main reason why I really like to go there again during day time.

Even though it was only me walking in that park, watched other people enjoying their family time, heard their talking and laughing and imagined that some day in the future I would have the similar happy hours like theirs today. Some day, to share with my love & my family in this beautiful weather and in this beautiful place.

I like the clear sky with couple of clouds hanging up there, I like the green trees with some little flowers hanging around, and I like the fresh air with the warm sunshine from heaven, all these wonderful things stayed around me which made me feel like walking in the daydreaming place.

There are thousands of hundreds of sweet words in the world, however, I only fancy the ones spoke from the bottom of heart, those which I heard: It's been a month till now, and you become more and more pretty since the day we've met; The note was written by the language that only we can understand, the language of love; You're thinking of the endless road, while I'm thinking of the endless kiss; You have the softest and sweetest lips that a man can ever thought; I believe that every person could find the perfect one to them, for me, you're the perfect; I'm so glad to have you in my life this semester and I hope it'll last forever...